Tell me, tell me who can i talk to...

Feeling alil tired, alil empty. Feels like sleeping, but yet i couldnt fall asleep. Just feel like going for a drink and drink, drunk, drank. Can't be bother to care so much like i used to, when people dont cherish and appreciate it. Life's something funnny which i couldn't understand about it. Need someone to talk to and shoulder so badly. But hey, who can i go to? Its right that so many others care for you, dote you even more, understand your needs and wants, but yet.. i can't accept it. My heart is not big enough to content one more in. Therefore, got to choose one, just one is enough. And let go on others that is not that one. I believe this happened to most of girls right, when a guy is pretty nice and care for you, and you know.. you know he can give you more than that. But you reject it and remains the same, ended up? Is relationship all about this ? im getting lil bit of tired and sick in this. Feeling so sucks now. At times, i start to ask myself, why? Yes, just this words, 'WHY'. If this's not th relastionship and type of guy you looking for, then WHY do you choose to  stay ? Well, maybe because i love him' but ive no idea whether does he feels the same..?


How much of you, understand and know what im feeling now ? :(