OKOK.
It's seem like i choose to give up.
&Yea,
im started to feel the stress!
white hair came out le
OMG!


tmr got D&T and CPA
and i din even start with my re-search!


If i ever bang myself to the wall, don't you imagine what will happen.

My dear blog,
i know after i say this
you might think im crazy
But i still decided to say it.


When i woke up on my afternoon nap
mummy told me she's praying outside
to let jiujiu come my house have dinner together
as every years of today you will nvr fail to join us.


a strong wind pass by..
and i believed you are here.


when im helping mummy to prepare the food
my tears drop down.



i believed jiujiu came to my house
and join us for reunion dinner.

Today's new year's eve.
Jiujiu,
you are suppose to come my house today
to have reunion dinner together with us.
come back..
please..
i don't know why,
i don't want anything now
i just want you to join us today.


Ah Gu,
there's alot of words i wanted to tell you.
imissyou.
i really do.

With so much words left to say, yet unable to say it.

Alright,

First of all.

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY DADDY!

i'm so sorry.

we forgotten its your bdae ytd ):

Secondly,

thanks guys for those who being there for me whn im down.

im feeling better le.

now,

im alrdy facing the fact.

After school, stay back for CPA extra lesson.

thn extyra sci lesson.

to west mall buy present.

thn go home change.

after that go gym.

If you don't know what you want, try finding out what you don't want

Ah Gu..
i miss you, i really do..
im trying to be very strong,
but i still can't take it all of the sudden.
whenever i looked at your photo,
everything came to my mind again.
i don't know..


maybe i just need sometimes..


Cousin, i'm not your xiao zhuzhu.
Cheer up too ya?

I do not know what to say now.
or i should say, I do not know where to start,
i'm totally lost of words.

Jiujiu [Ah gu] , take care alright?

i know,
as i grew older, i stopped talking to you as much

but once i heard you leave us.
i broke down.

images flashed past me.

about when im small, you use to carry mi high in the air.

the time when you're still with us

.

i just treat you like my daddy.
you used to stay overnight at my house,
and i will let you sleep in my bed,
i went to daddy mummy room sleep.

Everytime you came,

you will never fail to buy my fav chickenWing with you.

Every year of the new year eve,
you will definitely come to our house to hav dinner together,
just like a one big family.

But now...

i dunno..
i do not know what to do.
i miss you,
i really do.

when i saw your face in the HSA,
i didnt' thought i would cry.
Because i thought i was prepared..
but once i saw you for the one,
& afternoon
when i walked to your the coffin and took a look inside.

there i saw you..


i seat beside your photo,
those past memory flashed back to me again.
&i just can't control my tears..
Things wouldn't be the same without you.

Even we are from diff world now.
but you will always be inside my heart.
some memories are always meant to be kept.

Wee!
just finish doing my math homework!
:DD

Alright,
seriously!
today in school really gonna laugh off my ass!
i wun forget today during eng
hahahahs!


just now went out with mummy.
hahas.
thn wanted to buy the high heels.
but dun hav my size ):
so choose another pair.




Teddy; don't you find out its too late for everything?

I'm sad ):
Joshua, you must ans for it.
D:

Alright,

i just feel like banging myself to the wall again -.-

After 2hours,

finally im done with my class blog.

Today having Ultimae race.

you can go to my class blog

if you wan to see the photo(:

Tmr; don't sleep in class, atleast learnt something(:

I FINALLY KNOW WHAT I WANT TO BE WHEN I GROW UP!


after thw workshop,
went to The Chevrons for bowling till 5.30pm.

after bowling went to popular.

saw some cute stuff.

Having career workshop today.
& yea.
make me feel like a star today.
taking photo here and there.
:D

Those are someof the photo,

will upload more once i get the other photo(:

I've been lying on my bed most of the time today.
i keep thinking of alot of stuff.
& there's alot of stuff came to my mind.
Well,
after today ,
i realised my life's nothing.
i do not know what i live for.
i keep asking myself,
If i can live forever, what will i live for?
my mind is totally blank.

Alright.
tmr's monday
& gonna wear office wear tmr
sucks.

.

OMG!
my canada boyyyy!
You're sooo hot !

:D

Went to meet Ah Hao today,

thn went to POSB bank.

after that went to suntec city brought my Nat clothe.

yup.

that's all for today(:

HAPPY NEW YEAR! :D

It's seem so fast that another year had been past.

Yupp,
its 2009 now.
time passed fast.
well well.


Daddy; Mummy- dad, mum. I'm sorry for everything that i had done wrong in 2008. I'm sorry that i've been keep staying out late till laterst by around 4am step in home.& making you both of you worried bout me. i promised. i will be a good girl in 2009 and study hard alright? believe me(:


Da korkor- YeAH! you did booked out today! bro, you know what? i miss sooooo muchhhh! well, wanna thanks for your everything. Your love, your care, your patience, and last but not least. those money you gave me when i needed!. YEA! whnever i need money, you will be my ATM. I rmb, for my japan trip. you're the one who gave me money. If not, i don't think i'm able to go. THANK YOU BRO! contiues have fun in your tekong ba! JIAYOUU! ;D


korkor- Well, yup. i admit i still kinda dislike you. but still, you're still my own brother. wanna thanks for taking of me sometimes too(:


Sotongs'06- Yea! had been together for around more than 3years le ya. Had went through those thick and thin.& also in the committee'08 with you guys for around 1 year? thanks for beening there whenever i need you guys! ((:


3T1'08- Hey guys, knowing each other for 4 years! yup, we stand together, we fall together. well, im honour to be 3T1'08 chairman too. Thanks guys(:


Club Gusto- I'm enjoy joining you guys this year ya! Hope to see you guys next yr again!(:

Huifen- HAPPY 8YEARS ANNIVERSARY sayang! LOL!


Junci- ASS HOLE! nono, darling!(: thanks for being my last mins "tutor" every years. Without you, i won't have a good marks at the end of the year! (:


Cherie- Twin! hahahas! forgive and forget(:


Bearbear- HAPPY NEW YEAR ! yupp, prove to me; &you know what i meant((:

Alright, i'm sorry if i miss-ed out any of your name.
cos i do not hav the time to contiues writing.
my bad, sorry.
Well, once again.
HAPPY NEW YEAR!May all your wishes come true!
:D